Rest In Peace Robby;

Earlier I found out that my friend Robby Sessions passed away. He'd been drinking, and fell off of a balcony and landed on his head. It is just starting to hit me, and I'm starting to think more about life, and death especially. All of these people, some being friends, are all dying and it's scaring me. What if I'm next? Or Anthony? Or one of my best friends? I will really miss sharing cigarettes with Robby at Mobile during lunch, and seeing him riding his bike everywhere, and falling on his ass. I'll miss our random conversations.

I'm just really happy that I got to talk to him on Tuesday at the Half Shell, and I got to see him one last time. I will truly miss his smile. He was actually starting to change his life, and then two days after his 21st birthday, he was gone. This changes my whole perspective on drinking. Robby, I am so sorry, and I know that you're looking down on me right now, wondering why I am so sad. I hope you truly rest in peace. Visit me in my dreams tonight, and tell me that you're okay, just so I can be content. Love you bud.

You're everything;

You're in every thought I think, and every dream I dream, You're face in every crowd, on every person that I see. You're every little boy smiling at his mom, you are every single meaning in every single song. Everyday you are the sunrise, and every night you are the sunset, you're every cloud that passes by, I will never forget. You're every drop of Jupiter, you're every tear I shed, you're every prayer I pray, when I lay in bed.

You're every book I read, on every single page, you're every face in the audience when I am on stage. You appear in every painting and every single dream, you're smile reflects brighter, than any other sunbeam. You are every laugh, you are every smile, you're the only reason that every thing's worthwhile. You're courage, you're love, you're happiness and more, your memories and friendship were more than I could wish for.

In one night, you killed it;

Reality sets in, as I fall to my knees, I look at you, sobbing, as the wind moves the trees. Sorrow fills the room, as I grasp the blade tight, I try to pull it out, but you put up a fight. I try to get up, then you pull me back down, you try to smile, but I only frown.

Last words were spoken, a whisper invoken, "I'm sorry I love you", very quiet and choken. You get up, grab the shovel, start digging the pit, My very last thought was, "In one night, you killed it."

Follow me;

Follow me to the place, where the skies are so bright, where you're beauty glistens in the afternoon light. Follow me to the place, where the birds fly up high, where the seeds of the most beautiful rose bushes lie.

Follow me to the place, that puts smiles on faces, where everyones happy, no matter the cases. Follow me to the place, come on, we will race, if only in the world, there was such a place.

Missing you;

A ray of light, morning from night, shines through my window today, my very first thought, all the things that you sought, how will I get through the day? I sit up in bed, you come to my head, I wish I could hug you right now, wipe the sweat of my brow, the day starts now, how could you possibly be dead?

I put on my clothes, I walk out the door, what could this day have in store, I turn the first street, treading nothing but sleet, what am I even living for? My first thought is you, I wish you were here too, climbing this ladder called life, it gave me a smile, thinking of you for awhile, but keeping it's a hell of a fight.